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Friday, November 16th, 2007
7:30 pm	It's time for a meme. Post a comment to this entry and I will... 1. Tell you why I friended you. 2. Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a color, a photo, etc. 3. Tell you something I like about you. 4. Tell you a memory I have of you. 5. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you. 6. Tell you my favorite user pic of yours. 7. In return, you must post this in your LJ. Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Monday, October 29th, 2007
12:46 am	Heh. happy birthday to me, I suppose. very nice concert about four hours ago, so I'll just shift it mentally ahead a couple so that that's starting off the new year and not this pounding headache. anyways, sleep, work, and then...er. who knows? yay, 23. night, all. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 5th, 2007
9:40 am	From the Desk of the Residence Inn Ah, California. Having never been this far north before, (most of my relatives living in Laguna Beach, Riverside, or thereabouts), I've seen the deserts and the mountains, but I've never seen the rolling fields of Napa Valley, with their heavy loads of vines, or smelled the air redolent with green onions and garlic, or seen that one field just off to the side that was apparently waiting for a small girl and her dog to wander by. (at least, I'm assuming they were poppies.)  Granted, there's some of that to the south, too(fruit trees and figs, if I recall Grandpa Fernando's stories.); however, we generally stuck around the area of Laguna Beach. Not much potential to see agriculture there. Nor Borrego Springs, that's in the middle of the desert. Hm. other things of note were the oddly glinting fields we passed; later seeing them a bit closer realizing that there were little metallic streamers tied to the top of them. Also, passing by Fraggle Rock in...I think it as New Mexico, but it might have been Arizona...the rain hat followed us until we got out of New Mexico, ...running into what appeard to be an honest to god ghost town, although to be charitable, it was about seven or eight at night, people had probably just packed up and gone home. When one's looking for gasoline, though, it's a bit offputting to see the one pump in the area covered in tarps and looking as if it's not been serviced in years. Nonetheless, we've arrived, and Great-grandmother's doing well, and today, we get to celebrate her 90th birthday. Alhough it passed about four days ago, this is more a reunion of the Boonstra side of the family. Mildly dissappointing, because I wouldn't mind seeing the Jones side, but we're on a somewhat tight schedule going back, so there's no deviations from the course. (San Jose being in the moderate to extreme north of California, and Laguna being very, very south.) And now to eat breakfast. I'll probably go into a bit more detail later, if I feel like it. Current Mood: content (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 8th, 2006
9:34 am	I believe they missed something... It's rather interesting to note that for student loan purposes, I'm my little brother's father. I'm not sure I want to know what else these 'prescreened offers' miss; it's quite bad enough that I seem to be married to my sister, apparently Current Mood: bemused Current Music: .hack//games-Harald's, Aura's themes. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 29th, 2006
9:19 am	Listening to music, my soul sings. lambent light and blessed darkness, the silver strains of sounds wing upwards amidst the golden light of heaven. Voiceless, I cry, silent, I pray, and the speaking melodies within and without transfix and transfigure. (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 2nd, 2006
11:06 pm	I now know what salmon feel like, thanks to swimming-well, biking,- up the roads in the middle of a torrential downpour for half an hour or so. It's a very wet experience. After eight hours of work, one of which was spent looking bedraggled as I come in the door to the dismay of my coworkers, then being sent to the restroom to dry off, everything's dry again..or tolerably lightly damp. except my shoes. they remained the one bastion of moisture, its rearguard attempt to not leave me completely alone. Eh. It truly accomplished nothing permanent besides the fact that my feet were sore. It's kind of odd, though.Is going through strong weather that unusual? It's not really all that bad, you're just at the mercy of the wind and rain for a period of time. I didn't skid, which was good, and I could see...well, more or less. So I suppose the moral of the story is that to my dawning horror and amusement, I rather liked it. I may actually end up doing it again. well, on my day off, so I can actually get myself WARM afterwards. Good god, it was cold for several hours. (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 30th, 2005
1:06 am	...can't get out.... So, the 29th was my twenty first birthday. nothing much happens, other than the fact that I have to work from four to modnight, thus destroying any chance of working concessions. Still irritated about that. eh. so, now i'm legal to drink. yay. Anyways. aftermath: typing this from inside room. Supplies: limited. One small birthday cakelet and a submarine sandwich, as well as a bottle of Asti. Visibility and Range of Movement: limited. small decorative mines in the form of balloons and large paper streamers serve to impede escape. Resolution: Never leave my parents alone with my room for eight hours while I'm working and it's my birthday. ...hold on, they weren't alone, my sister aided and abetted. ..alright, make that immediate family without supervision. Eh. Thank you Fluffy and Sara for the card, Amber and John for the towels, and Parents for the ties and shiny gift card. it wasn't that bad, I guess. now, for another year. here I go. Update: mental note. Fan now whirling mass of death. I repeat, ceiling fan now whirling mass of death. do not turn the fan on until you can get these things off of it. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 16th, 2005
12:48 am	Hm. what better thing to do at midnight? ( Last one for now, I swear...(and what was the point of this one again?) ) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 26th, 2005
12:16 pm	New Phone, thus new Phone Number. Oh, and look, the bandwagon's here. Went to Corpus for four days, so got sun, the family, and pets in large quantities. Well, the latter two, anyways, since I was only able to kayak once. darn short vacations. Let's see..got a new phone, so I have a new number. Yay. If you need it, I can now be reached at: (361) 563-3392. I may need phone numbers from you guys again, I'm not sure how much time I'll have to transfer my old phone list before the other phone finally dies. Now, the bandwagon: Harry Potter Personality Quiz by Pirate Monkeys Inc. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 18th, 2005
2:08 am	So, would you like fries with that? Ketchup? A phone number? Ye gods, I can't tell if I'm being punished or rewarded sometimes. So many good looking guys coming through Mcdonalds lately, some of them repeat customers. And little old me taking their money and going "...um. smile and nod, smile and nod, can't-look-them-directly-in-eyes-for-more-than-a-second-it'd-be-staring-oh-hell." *amused* *wryly* I think I need to get laid. but all the cute guys in cepheid are taken or/and straight, or worse, indifferent. Eh, c'est la vie. (...that and I'd need a bloody instruction manual, all the reading in the world doesn't make up for sheer lack of experience) ("Hm...insert slot A into tab B...or is it the other way around?" *flips book over*) (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 16th, 2005
12:21 am	Time. Fear. Loss. Lack of breath. I don't know whether my time remaining on the earth is in days or years. And sometimes, it's hard to tell. (Comment on this)
Friday, July 8th, 2005
5:18 am	Lactic acid from hell, one thinks. Agh..the pain in my shoulders is killing me...It's one of those pains where you wake up with a dull knifelike arc in the upper biceps and shoulder and it gets no better as the day goes on, worsening as you lie down to sleep...and the strange dreams...the iron bars of the spiked gates tower over me...their shadows lie twisted around me as night clouds scutter over the disc of the moon...I am captive, held on a whim by the false lord...then, the cool darkness looses the chains of thought, and I am also free, laughing amidst sunlit meadows, darkened glades, and the shadow-dappled steps of the temple where once upon a time, a familiar figure lifted his head from the shadows of his own travails to greet me and speak of things I only wish I could remember in the waking world. Then something takes me and rouses me to wakefulness, and as I realize that I am Andres, not the prisoner nor the free one, the searing pain, as a brand, rouses from sleep to lick once more across my arms and remind me that I am indeed once more awake. Grr. Damn pain. Wilt thou cease to torment me and subside so that I may find peace in my sleep once more!...*sighs* That is all. I thank ye for listening to my ramblings, and a good night to ye. (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 3rd, 2005
10:24 pm	Wah! my home is full of Philistines! ...just out of curiosity, have any of you guys read "A Wrinkle in Time" by Madeline L' Engle? or even heard of it?*quiet desperation* Current Mood: crushed (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 16th, 2005
12:52 am	Part 2 .( the east ) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 12th, 2005
6:01 pm	Part 1 ( Then and elsewhere ) .   ( And now. ) (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 10th, 2005
1:08 am	This is so cool! http://www.hcn.zaq.ne.jp/cabic508/rsf/frame1.html I'll never look at Final Fantasy 6 the same way. Nonetheless, this is a wonderful take on the console gaming world. Current Mood: enthralled (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 26th, 2005
1:58 am	Time to update again, as I take up the warp and weft of the tapestry to create inexpert weavings of my words and thoughts. Cepheid this year....has been more of an exercise to me than an actual reality. I suppose it's mainly because of the fact that I keep missing meetings...somehow, I don't really feel all that motivated. It's not really depression, just...the absence of feeling? in the quiet frozen clarity of night, I think it might be apathy, but then why the hell do I still bother to care? So..it's probably not quite that. I want so much, yet can do so little. It's kind of interesting when one stifles desires for so long, how one feels incapable of acting on such things, as if they've ossified over the years and now have become immutable, unresponsive, smooth faceted stones that glimmer and blaze but give off no heat or warmth with which to sustain. Beh. As usual, I'm not sure what I want, mainly because I'm afraid to face it fully. The concept of sharing people with others...I still need to master it. I can't be more to my friends than what I am, although I might desire more, it is in the end a futile wish, for my attentions tend to blaze up like a fire and then wane with interest. Something awakens within me, takes note, says "I want..." and then dies again. Hm. Does this mean I choose friends based on my current level of interest, or their utility to me? Possibly. I'd rather it be something else, but I don't really know, what with my intentional self limitation. Shallow, eh? Physical attraction forms quite a bit of my basis of association, but there's also the certain glow some people seem to have...to bask in the light of their attention, for a space of time, to have their attention focused on me...this is selfish, but natural to me. Banked yet not so well hidden fires burning in the depths. And by now anyone who's reached this point is drowning in a sea of metaphor. So I think I'll stop blindly typing into the keyboard in my lap for tonight, and retire. Tomorrow I shall wake with my enthusiasm for life restored somewhat. And maybe time shall heal my body and illuminate the darkness. Until then, I shall wander. Current Mood: Numb/wangsty/thoughtful Current Music: Alundra-Shrine of the lake (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 13th, 2005
2:30 am	..Sleep? what sleep? So, now that I have a week to do nothing but wonder about random assorted pains and twinges in body *go me* I am also attacked by the fact that I'm now disliking the whole going to sleep thing. *long story, directly ties into fear of death and me worrying about this* So, to distract myself long enough to get tired and sleep, I pop Legend of Dragoon into the playstation. After a few hours, I have to stop playing for a few seconds while I sit there and giggle incoherently at the screen. Some of the cutscenes are just swimming in homoerotic subtext. That and it's a bit overly dramatic. It still looks like Dart and Lavitz have a thing going for each other, and as for Lavitz and Albert...well, I suppose that's their business. Anyways, going to go back to playing until I collapse. May go see doctor again at some point, have to pay the first doctor's bill first. Eh. If these pains'd just go away, I'd be happy. Otherwise, just I'd really rather not die quite so soon. Hm. eternal cycle of worry. Damn it. Ah, well. COuld be worse. I am still alive, after all, at least enough to whine endlessly about this. and it's entirely possible that it's nothing at all...erm. more accurately, nothing as in "not life-threatening" I don't think it'd hurt this much if it were nothing. (Comment on this)
Friday, February 25th, 2005
12:04 am	This looks like fun. Music meme Choose a band/artist and answer only in song TITLES by that band: Dream Theater Are you male or female: The Silent Man Describe yourself: Lifting Shadows off a Dream How do some people feel about you: Perfect Strangers How do you feel about yourself: Wait for Sleep Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: Vacant Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend: Strange Deja Vu Describe where you want to be: Surrounded Describe what you want to be: Learning to Live Describe when you want to be: The Dance of Eternity Describe how you live: Take the Time Describe how you love: Blind Faith Share a few words of wisdom: Carpe Diem (Comment on this)
Friday, January 14th, 2005
11:18 am	*wryly* Well..that didn't help much... Yay, I now have a holter monitor for a day. What does that mean, boys and girls,? It means that they're monitoring my heart to see if any abnormalities crop up during the day; if so, I press button like so, hear beep, mark it, and then write down the time and the particulars of the episode. Otherwise(although I heard that's what they do anyways,) they have to dig through a day's worth of EKG to determine where the abnormalities are. I feel a bit better now that something tangible (i.e. the bloody thing's now attatched) is being done, although they have been trying to figure out what the pains are, true. And it could be any one of a number of things, seeing as how I think there are at least four distinct different types of pain I've identified that can be going on at one time. This is just to either diagnose heart problems or to, well, eliminate the supposition. Either way, if they'd just go away and not come back, I'd be happier. However, while I'm asking for that, I'd also like a pony, a small jet, and a million dollars. I don't think that some of these'll go away without prior treatment, but I'm not sure. All I really need at this point is to know what the hell's wrong, so I don't have to be jumping at shadows anymore. And so that I can take steps to fix it, or, if it's more or less permanent, to live with it. Other than this, life as normal, still going to attempt to attend school, work, yay. I'm no longer terrified. Scared at times, yes. But, it's been going down lately. It just keeps flaring up about once or twice a day as opposed to several times. Heh. I'm thinking circularly again. Anyways...Talk to you all when I can Current Mood: reflective Current Music: the hum of the computer fan (1 Comment |Comment on this)